Aaah, it's a closure for my lifelong journey Sarah. I had reached a full circle, knowing the same place like it was the first time.
We shall not cease from exploration, and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time. T. S. Eliot
Imagine, I was so desperate that I even offered my big heart to Idanio, who is totally out of my specs. I even purposely look for the opportunity to die, can you believe it Sarah?
Remember what I said when I was looking for the ultimate love song? This song keep popping up in my mind?
Now it gives me new meaning. That means I have to protect my fragile heart. I cannot go around hogging it to any Tom, Dick and Harry. People who don't appreciate it will simply trash it like Els here.
Many of us don't value what we got until we lose it. Well it is her loss. I'm gone Sarah, I AM HISTORY.
Now my heart is in the safe deposit. I might as well throw away the keys. Between the Super 7 and my Tetrahedron I have plenty of receiving and giving. It is a close loop system.
When I think of the hideous things people did to me, I feel peeved.
Imagine, a few months back I asked BJ for some hourly odd job that I can do professionally and here he was offering me a RM2 k a month delivery job without fuel allowance. That is equivalent to RM1.5 k a month net income.
How could he do that Sarah? He is exploiting me. People are certainly selfish. I think I stop smoking pot with him. I want to quit anyway. This is a good reminder why I should stay quit.
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