I slept the whole day today. I only slept for 3 hours last night. It was a good rest.
Let's look at the bright side. If I feel terrible, she must felt really empty all by herself dealing with her breakup. At least I got a way to vent my frustration. She on the other hand is all alone.
My benchmark is very simple. She doesn't respond to either my Tweet of email. So I should pick up the cue.
Let face it. She doesn't love me. I had fun because I was too into myself.
Be realistic about it. I was being crazy. I even cyber stalked [be]. I should stop making a fool of myself.
Actually I was not even in love with the person. I was in love with the ideals she projected. I was looking for a playmate. She satisfy both my child-child and child-parent ego states. This is not an adult-adult ego state. In the long run it will be damaging. It gives way to anger and vengeance. I already experiencing that.
What is the alternative? Love myself. Have self-respect and know when to cut loose. It is just a state of mind. It is not real, Move on.
Christmas is the cut off date. After that just forget about it. I deserve better.
Consider it as the fling of the year. There is nothing to it.
I am a mature adult. I should rise above all these.
To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment. - Ralph Waldo Emerson
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