I don't want to play the walled city game anymore. I want to build a relationship. I want to build her. I know that is not possible with her state of mind. But I see so much potential.
Well I can tell for sure the more real the Unreal but Beautiful Princess the more certain I have with Unconditional Love.
I cannot wait to be fully recovered from this 20 years illness. All it takes is love. I bet Dr. Amarpreet won't buy the story.
Track record proved that the medication is just treating the illness at the surface level. If she goes really deep she will come to the same conclusion. I need somebody I can love with all my heart.
Lizzie won't let me. None of the kids do. Don't get me wrong. They are exemplar people. It's just they don't listen to me. Instead they talk I listen. So they don't really know who I am, what was my experience in the past 20 years.
I am like a soldier experiencing post war depression. Worst I have a trauma. Luckily I read as much as I can about my illness. If I depend on medication alone, I will vegetate.
Btw Sarah, I am no doing all these because I love Els more. It doesn't work that way. I love all three of you pretty much the same. When my love for one grows, so shall my love for the other 2 grows too.
It's a world of abundance. The more you give the more you receive. It's a continuous upward spiral.
However, I look at you as my intimate partner. I will not [] back anything when I talk to you. You have the blueprint of how my mind works.
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Oh yeah I remember something. There will be a time when AI can emulate human mind. In case you are thinking to transfer to the cloud when you are dead so you can live inside the machine forever, don't be too excited.
The AI can map the algorithm of your mind, but that is not you. You are not there. What it does, the AI make a copy of everything but you cannot endure the process. UNLESS you accept that you have a version 2.0 which is a machine.
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My business is Exploring Human Potential. The prove of my success are my children. I took pride in shaping their formative years. I[] still like that. I think many people live a subpar life. They are going after the wrong priorities.
It is now more than ever that I am convinced it is not money or other buy more and more expensive things that count. It is what Covey stated; live, learn, love and leave a legacy. Only thing I like to change is to put love at the foundation.
Just look at you Sarah, your dedication is a prove of your love. You want to see me well again and so you endure.
Lizzie is another case, I never see anybody as committed [] her [] work and family like my darling Lizzie.
brb... Dinner...
The irony is, here I am running on empty and still want to help a stranded vehicle. That makes me either a nutcase or a hero. What do you think baby? Which one? The first or the latter?
I ask you a question, if you give a gift to a person and that person choose not to receive it, to whom does the gift goes to? Back to you right?
Well that's the attitude I am taking with Els. I keep on giving because I am a giver. She is a bird in a cage with all the technology surrounding her.
Why do people fear me Sarah? Is it because I am too frank? Am I that bad Sarah?
She sounded nervous. Maybe I am coming on too strong.
Oh well, she is still pretty much from the Boondocks.
OK, I let her unsubscribe me:
@elsdines @traxxfmofficial #traxxfm You are nervous. Sorry, sorry I didn't mean to scare you baby. Look, you can walk out anytime you like. Just like this Tweet and I'll be gone forever.
I don't think she will do it... See? She likes me. I am her number one fan.
Hahaha, games people play.
OK she liked the Tweet. Quite timely. Today is suppose to be the cut off date anyway.
So that's what it takes for her to say no.
I rather she be frank about it. So that answer my question then.
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Boy, that's a relief. Now I can focus.
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