Nothing else is needed to be happy. The rest are distractions.
Actually I just need a channel to express myself. Nothing is more significant than the blog.
In the end, a Warrior Walks Alone. I have to accept this reality.
So I march on to the beat of a lonely drum. Not having any expectation.
What counts is the survival of the self.
Along with Els's departure is the loss of my loving feeling. Yati is right, love = problem. I don't know when will I ever fall in love again. I just keep my feeling of love to you, Lizzie and the kids. Make it small. No more the Greater Love of the Sufi. I only love those who love me. The philosophy that for me to love the Creator I got to love the creations is no longer true.
I collapse everything External. No more FB, no more Dreams of Mirrors, no more TraXXfm, Chedet.cc, and Tweeter.
brb... sending Mopey...
Funny thing is I now feel level headed. I am not depressed but I am not overwhelmingly happy either. That means throughout this one and a half months after her birthday I was experimenting mania.
Very strange indeed. I don't feel any difference. However if I look at the Chedet.cc postings, I was on mania throughout the year!
I need a reality check and this is it.
So what is the tell tale sign?
- Overly positive
- Over confident
- Reckless
Chedet.cc posting is a good case study.
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