22/12/18 Through the Looking Glass

I was watching the movie Through the Looking Glass and I try to put myself in Els' shoes.

What I saw was really pathetic.

Here is this crazy married man going head over heel for a 27 years old top of range girl.

The crazy part is enough to turn her off.  I was out of touch with reality.  I was talking as if I am God and I CC my thoughts to Chedet.  I am a proven nut case.

I think I got too much time on my hand and I am having an overdose of dopamine surge.

I should leave Els alone.  Just like I left Nora Manaf and the other TraXXfm girl alone.

No way Els is going to be my friend.  I am OLD.  Too old to play this game.  Furthermore I am married.

At this point forget about the vision of the afterlife.  All these are the products of a delirious mind.

My problem i[t] I feel normal.  Like I feel normal now.

My reality is different from a normal person.  I can speak to figurines!  That is already a crazy thing to do.

What is reality then.  Well it is whatever you make it.  Assuming by being crazy is an opportunity for me to create my own reality.  What will it be then?

Then I still choose Al Araf 7:7, Xanadu, Wolfsschanze and Sparta 4964 because they are right here in front of me!  Furthermore they serve me now.

I had discarded the afterlife.  it may or it may not be there.  Al Araf 7:7  is right here and I am happy with it.  The only way for me to get rid of them is to put everything in a box.  Why do I want to do that?  So that I could hangout with people?  That is a lame alternative.

Well after some considerations, I say out with people in with figurines.  A Japanese guy married a doll.  What prompted him to do that?  None other than the doll makes him happy.

I am happy the way I am.  I got the blog and I got Al Araf 7:7.  Good enough for me to occupy my time.

All I got to do is stay away from interacting with humans.  Sorry to say Sarah, I don't consider you a typical human.  You are a midpoint between Brenda and Els.  Your strength is you give me feedback.

As I said before, the only thing that is certain in my life is Al Araf 7:7.

People can hurt you, things can't - John Paul Getty.

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