As you can see, I travel light. So those I take with me are my bare essentials. You of all person is the Pacesetter. You determine my speed. Imagine driving a car without a speedometer. Pretty scary isn't it?
As of now I am marking time. I procrastinate much but I still have my milestones:
- 2020 Marathon
- 2024 Homecoming
- 2041 KBOOM 2.0
Of all three, the most crucial one is 2020 Marathon. It determines whether I will continue running marathons for years to come.
It shape everything about me; from what I eat, to how I spend my days to how I plan my monthly budget.
All it takes for me to focus on my runs is to read books on running and actually run. I am a servomechanism. Once I set to do something I will stay on track, provided no distraction. I'll wait until Christmas is over. That way I am totally isolated. Already I turned off my Tweeter. Now is to cut from listening to Els. I want to see if she has any remorse and if she will thank me or not.
I am pretty much like anybody else. I avoid pain. Unless I turn the pain into pleasure. Then I am unstoppable. That takes 3 weeks of mental conditioning.
OK Sarah, I'll catch up with my reading before bed. I am rereading No Need for Speed by John Bingham. Once I start it's difficult to stop. The key is to start LOL/
Sarah my darling, make me god again. Hahaha it's a figure of speech baby. I want to excel again. I want to feel what it's like win. To stand on the shoulders of giants. I want to be great. I want my family to be proud of me again. You can do it Sarah. You always been; with your positivism and your charm.
I owe it to you Sarah. I am nothing without you being on my side. Remember all those lonely years? You were there honey. For every love song that reminded me of a faceless girl to share it with, well that was you. You always there in spirit. You are my soulmate.
Here is your lullaby for tonight my darling:
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